Just some random thoughts

I feel like I have been caught up in memories. I remember Logan as a little baby, I remember her stages in life, and I am missing them so much. I want to pause my life as it is now. I don't want time to go by just yet. The time has gone extremely fast, almost as I don't know where it has gone! Logan is 5 years old, Jensyn is 3, and Jack is almost 1. Time needs to stand still for just a moment! Jack is at the most wonderful age. He interacts so well with us. He laughs with his innocent voice...his big cheeks take up the whole of his face. His bright eyes light up the room. He makes me smile. I miss the days where Logan would, non-stop, talk about "Spirit." She would wake up in the morning and ask for it to be turned on for her. She would pronounce it "Pirit." She was always my little sidekick. We love to hang out together. Jensyn was born about 6 months before we moved here. Her life has breezed by. Her little giggles and her "tee-hee" when she laughs. She, too, makes me smile. I see myself in her. I am so grateful for all these wonderful things that I get to experience. I am so happy to be a mom, and to be able to spend my days with them. There is so much that I want to improve on, because I can be a better mom. How could something so perfect be given to someone, imperfect, like me? I am so blessed to be their mom. (Then there are the days where I could pull my hair out!! If it is mine, it might as well be theirs, and theirs often means that they play with it and then scatter it all over the floor, resulting in missing pieces and ultimately the untimely retirement to the garbage can. What can I do??) I love my babies.